Hi, I'm back after quite a long absence. I was sick for a while. Thank G-d, I'm back and doing much better. Well, today is my first day of my new job- after care program for 4-7 year old kids from 1:00-6:00. This should be quite a new experience. In more ways than one. Maybe they (the kids) will teach me how to chill some more. Being intense and deep has its place and time, but I need more of a balance. For my own sake. One main thing that hopefully I will learn from them is not to beat myself up so much. That's one thing that little kids don't usually do so often. You don't see too many 5 and 6 year olds spending their time being hard on themselves. They don't over-think things either. Maybe I can pick up some things from them. Maybe appreciate simplicity some more. That would be great.
I'm a bit nervous though. Nervous for the challenges that come with the job. The challenges that lie ahead. I'm Scared to begin the new year- scared of the unknown. Should I be? No. But I am. It's natural I guess. Tells me I need to work on my bitachon. I have A LOT to work on don't I? Yep. But I can't do everything at once. S0 what do I choose? Hmmmm.........
Of everything I need to work on, I think I'll choose to work on giving myself credit for everything I do and all the effort I use towards things. I will try to acknowledge even and ESPECIALLY the things that may be easy for most people but are hard for me. I don't exactly know how to do that without feeling fake. So if any of you have any suggestions, I would love to hear them.
Looking forward
-Max